Lies the enemy has told me

hey Zesters,
   :) this has been one of those days but i server an amazing God :) came home from walking the dogs and thought that i would do something that i never do relax :)  so i mad myself a spa salad :) then took a nice long bubble bath :) then i read my bed time story :) which is just a devotional book that i read every night for the next month and tonight's like most nights for the past week or so has really been hitting home its talking about how we allow the enemy to rob us of the truth of the kingdom when it comes to our selves... i want you to take a minute and think and write it down if you have to "What do you like about yourself ?"  to be honest my first thought was " I can tell you what i don't like about myself "  and why do we go there ? i know for me it is because i was picked on as a kid i got it a lot at school but i also got it a lot from my family my dad ( yes that is correct , MY DAD  ) would say things like " get off your FAT lazy ass " or his ex wife would tell me " "you are eating all of Oregon"  or my grandma would say things like "you are bigger then me " so to say the least i have always had body image issues. so i say this now and i want it to be loud and clear NO MORE !!! I CHOOSE TO LOVE ME THE WAY THAT I AM !!! and to start i want to face some of the lies that the enemy has told me

Lie : that i was a mistake
Truth : I am Fearfully and Wonderfully made (psalm 139:14)

Lie: that i will never be good enough
Truth : I was Chosen by Jesus ( John 15:16)

Lie: there are somethings that are unforgivable
Truth : i am free from Condemnation (Romans 8:1)

Lie: that i will never find a guy that loves me for me
Truth : I am loved dearly by God (john 16:17)


the  prayer
God, i know you made me - and you don't make junk. Help me to see the lies i have been believing for what they are- lies - and then get rid of them . i want to see myself the way you see me, as your precious child. please begin the process of changing my mind and my heart so your opinion is the only one that truly matters to me .
AMEN 
 

Hey Y'll

Hey Zesters,

    So this week has been a crazy one :) in such a good way, i feel like God i breaking me in putting me back the way that i am meant to be :)  so while it is hard and not fun i know that i am going to be a better person because of it :) so something that has been on my heart for the last 3 years is moving to North Carolina i am not sure why this place is on my heart i just know that it is and i have been wanting for ever to get there. so now the time has come i need to get moving or i will never go i will always find a reason to stay in Portland and while my heart is longing to be with someone i know that it is not RAY and i don't want to put my life and my plans on hold for someone who may not even be in portland. so this next week i will be working on getting back into school there is a program that i want to do and if i right it should only take me a year to get though once a graduate the plan is to find a job in NC either working as a Paralegal or finding another job until i find a paralegal job.  this past year has been an amazing year of growth and i am so grateful there are a lot of people, things and place that i will miss but i know that i bigger and better on the road ahead :)



so i am asking for a few things in prayer and if you would all be in Prayer with me that would be great

1. that God opens the doors for me to start school this fall 
2. that i am able to work full time and school fulltimme 
3. that i am able to find a job when the time comes 
4. that i will find a community 
5. that funds will come though for now and that i am able to save what i need for this move