Hey Zesters,
So the Question stands, What would you do if you had no fear? would you climb that mountain ? would you try out for that show/ play ? Will for some 60 or so 20 somethings from Portland, OR we are moving across country :). i have never been so excited and worried about anything in my life. This is not my first big move no the first one was unwanted and unplanned. My move to Portland started as a summer trip that lasted 7 years. that thought me some amazing things grew me into who I am today and laying the ground work for what my life is to become.
In the last 7 years I have seen more of the world then ever before, traveling to 2 other continents 4 other countries, have meet some amazing people, and like i said before have learn so much about myself, and my family. i have been though an extremely hard ID crisis where i never thought i would fit in any where, a lot had to to with my family history some of you know it others my never know but it has been some that i have had to deal with my whole life until recently. I found that i needed to go though those feelings I need to feel those feelings to find out that the place that I was looking for was not ready for me :) and I not ready for it.
i have hope for both Cities that have called me one of their own. I have hated my whole 7 years in Portland, and I know that i am not going to love every moment of my time in Raleigh.
i thought that i would add in this half thought idea without finishing it because will it is awesome ( in my mind ) the way that it is :)
Saturday, September 7, 2013
#PDXtoRDU
Hey Zesters,
long time I feel like every time that i sit down to write i get so bored or i get overwhelmed with my thoughts that i can't get though it. so i am going to try my hardest to get though everything that i want to say here :).
OK so for those of you that don't know I have been praying to move to Raleigh NC not sure why this city was so heavy on my heart but it was at Urbana 09 that God first put it on my heart to move to NC never really thought that it would happen but long behold almost 4 years later i sit in a Starbucks in Cary NC writing this to you :) ( my God is SO GOOD! )
i am not sure how long God has me here. but i do know that it will be for his good. as of right now i am part of a church plant that moved out from Portland, there are about 70 couples, singles and young families. as a core person in the church i am blessed to be part of the College Ministry team ( which is what i think i want to do for the next few yours : )
God has made it very clear that this is something that i can not do on my own that it is something that i am going to have to lay down at his feet. and have him knock them out. there are so many things that i want to try to take care of by myself. at the moment it is my job situation while i have a job :) i have no hours for the next few weeks at the moment :( which is going to kill my budget so much :( not sure how i am going to pay for a car, insurance, rent, house bills, phone, and gas if my budget is shot.
as for now i am holding on to " God is good so i don't have to be in control" he has blessed me this much so far from the funds for the move to a place to stay while we wait on our apartment to a connection while trying to buy a car. i know that his hand is in this. this is not my move this is his, so why do i keep trying to take it over ?
well just a few thought for you all today. my hope is that i will get back to writing at least twice a month if not more :) but we will see i know that there is going to be plenty to share so stay tuned :)
Sunday, July 7, 2013
The Heart Of the Matter
Hey Zesters,
So I feel like for the past few months I have gotton better at being still and listing to God's voice a lot with my move but just with other stuff as well. So a few months ago I was talking to a friend of my a few weeks before her wedding, and we were talking about Ray who had starting someone, who I really liked :) which made it really hard to see them together but i made it though :) i was telling her how i felt like God was prepping my heart for the fact that Ray and (lets call her Evangeline) where on the road to getting Engaged. i was telling my friend that while i would be happy for them it would be hard and not sure why. so fast forward to yesterday. i was on facebook and saw this post about how we see things one way, like waking up late or the small frustrating things of life. all we do is ask God why does he let those things happen to us. however its really God protecting us from other things. Car not starting for 20 mins = saving us from and accident. brings us to today it was my favorite little persons birthday party :) and i had told her mom that i would come early to help put it together i told her that i would be at her house at 9 am well i woke up at 8 15 am so i asked if i could get a ride there so i was packing my bag making sure that i didn't forget anything ok got it all out the door we go we get half way to my friends house when i realize that i forgot my phone... ok no big deal it means that i will be 100% present with the birthday girl and her brother and sister. and the party was great :) i had a blast :) so i get home and check my phone nothing super important just some updates for tomorrow so i hop on facebook and some fun updates :) then i see it the post that i knew was coming just didn't know when and was kind of hoping that it would be after my move i see that Ray is Engaged to Evangeline and the first thing that comes to mind i knew it was going to happen :) so i call up my bestie and all i said was "so i was on Facebook " and she says " oh you saw it " the funny thing is all i could was be happy its a bittersweet happy but happy none the least i thought maybe that is why i forgot my phone this morning think about it if i had my phone i would have been on facebook texting people alll of it i would have seen the post sooner and would have forgotton the reason why today was so awesome so praise be to God :)
Annette
So I feel like for the past few months I have gotton better at being still and listing to God's voice a lot with my move but just with other stuff as well. So a few months ago I was talking to a friend of my a few weeks before her wedding, and we were talking about Ray who had starting someone, who I really liked :) which made it really hard to see them together but i made it though :) i was telling her how i felt like God was prepping my heart for the fact that Ray and (lets call her Evangeline) where on the road to getting Engaged. i was telling my friend that while i would be happy for them it would be hard and not sure why. so fast forward to yesterday. i was on facebook and saw this post about how we see things one way, like waking up late or the small frustrating things of life. all we do is ask God why does he let those things happen to us. however its really God protecting us from other things. Car not starting for 20 mins = saving us from and accident. brings us to today it was my favorite little persons birthday party :) and i had told her mom that i would come early to help put it together i told her that i would be at her house at 9 am well i woke up at 8 15 am so i asked if i could get a ride there so i was packing my bag making sure that i didn't forget anything ok got it all out the door we go we get half way to my friends house when i realize that i forgot my phone... ok no big deal it means that i will be 100% present with the birthday girl and her brother and sister. and the party was great :) i had a blast :) so i get home and check my phone nothing super important just some updates for tomorrow so i hop on facebook and some fun updates :) then i see it the post that i knew was coming just didn't know when and was kind of hoping that it would be after my move i see that Ray is Engaged to Evangeline and the first thing that comes to mind i knew it was going to happen :) so i call up my bestie and all i said was "so i was on Facebook " and she says " oh you saw it " the funny thing is all i could was be happy its a bittersweet happy but happy none the least i thought maybe that is why i forgot my phone this morning think about it if i had my phone i would have been on facebook texting people alll of it i would have seen the post sooner and would have forgotton the reason why today was so awesome so praise be to God :)
Annette
Sunday, June 30, 2013
Babies, Bended Knees, and Exchange of rings ...
Hey Zesters,
wow it has been way to long i am so sorry, lucky for me there is no one that reads this unless i post it on Facebook ; ). so what's new you may ask... so many things, first off I AM MOVING TO NC !!!!! ahhh i am so excited i think that the last time that i posted i was going to go sometime next year but God has been so good and faithful in all that he has promised and i will be leaving Sept 5 of this year :) this is really an exciting time so many things are happening that I am not sure where to start and where to leave off but I will leave it here for now but I promise to keep to updated so stay tuned :)
wow it has been way to long i am so sorry, lucky for me there is no one that reads this unless i post it on Facebook ; ). so what's new you may ask... so many things, first off I AM MOVING TO NC !!!!! ahhh i am so excited i think that the last time that i posted i was going to go sometime next year but God has been so good and faithful in all that he has promised and i will be leaving Sept 5 of this year :) this is really an exciting time so many things are happening that I am not sure where to start and where to leave off but I will leave it here for now but I promise to keep to updated so stay tuned :)
Monday, October 29, 2012
You Inspire Me
hey zesters
so i have been doing some thinking :) and my thought was yes i have a lot of people in my life that encourage me to be a better person. however i have two people that i would say encourage me to be a better person, friend, sister, woman, christian and most importunately a better me. i love both of these women from the bottom of my heart and i am glad that i don't have to know life without them :) they have taught me so much about God, life, being natural, and being a strong independent black woman. they have prayed with me cried with me, walked around to major cites of the world with me and i really just there for me when i need them.
my aunt Carolyn is my dad's younger sister and the bad ass of the family ( she is not one that you want to cross) i have know this forever one of my first memoirs of my auntie, was the night my younger sister was born :) we had all been at the hospital all day and i believe that visiting time was over , so my auntie packed up me, my twin sister, and my younger brother and drove us home. not sure why i remember this part but she opened all the cabinets looking for something to make use for dinner i think we had top roman and pudding of something like that then she put my brother down to bed :) it was then our turn to get ready for bed so we got to have a bubble bath and i remember her telling us when all the bubbles were gone and our fingers look like raisins then it was time to get out :) then right before bed we got to seat in a triangle and we rolled the ball for a bit. my aunt has never been a sideline person in my life, i remember visiting her when she was at Hayward State and the only time that i think i lost contact with her for any about of time is when she lived in Oregon. i know that my auntie is one person that i can call day or night with any problem. she encourages me to stand up for me and for what i believe is right no matter who the person is and for this my auntie will always be a rock star bad ass in my book :)
I met Marshae my first week of school at Portland community , i remember her being super quite that first week. and for some reason i was drawn to her i wanted to know her secret. she was the intern for Intervaristy that year and they were doing the hands project where they would ask a question and you would write your answer on your hand then they would take a picture of it and hang it on a poster :) the first time i talked to Shae i wasn't sure why she felt so close being so new i didn't want to get to close i had made my mind up that i was only going to be in Portland one term and then i was going to head back to my school in California. ask any ( mostly shae ) and she will tell you that i hated Portland and i hated that i had to be here but i was falling in love with the people that i met. about 3 years ago i started going though an identity crisis it all started with a conversation that i had with my then 8 year old brother. she was a major part of helping walk though the ups and downs of why i was feeling the way that i was feeling a few months into my crisis i was sitting at home talking to some housemates when she walks in and starts talking with us, then almost out of the blue she says "who wants to go to Africa with me" she tells us that she would be co leading a team of students on a missions trip to Mozambique. i sat there thinking oh they are all going to have a good time a few weeks later i got a text and an email saying fill this out and send it back to me ASAP so i did ( i still wasn't sure if i was going to get picked to go ) but i was after a few misfortune events we were told that our team was not going to Mozambique that we where going to go to Egypt with other team :) few months later we were in one of the hottest dustiest places that i have ever been it was a once in a life time chances and shae had chosen me to go with her :) there are times where i feel like she doesn't like me and when i tell her that she reminds me that i am an extrovert and she an introvert and that we process thoughts and life around us in different ways :) she has tried her best to be a little more out going with me and i a little calmer with her but i have to say that she is one of the most beautiful, (inside and out ) heartfelt genuine people that i have the honor to have in my life :)
Auntie and Shae you are both amazing women and i thank you for every conversation, meal made with/for for all the randomness/ awesomeness i'm glad that you are in my life and that you inspire me to be the best me that i can be :)
Love Annette
so i have been doing some thinking :) and my thought was yes i have a lot of people in my life that encourage me to be a better person. however i have two people that i would say encourage me to be a better person, friend, sister, woman, christian and most importunately a better me. i love both of these women from the bottom of my heart and i am glad that i don't have to know life without them :) they have taught me so much about God, life, being natural, and being a strong independent black woman. they have prayed with me cried with me, walked around to major cites of the world with me and i really just there for me when i need them.
my aunt Carolyn is my dad's younger sister and the bad ass of the family ( she is not one that you want to cross) i have know this forever one of my first memoirs of my auntie, was the night my younger sister was born :) we had all been at the hospital all day and i believe that visiting time was over , so my auntie packed up me, my twin sister, and my younger brother and drove us home. not sure why i remember this part but she opened all the cabinets looking for something to make use for dinner i think we had top roman and pudding of something like that then she put my brother down to bed :) it was then our turn to get ready for bed so we got to have a bubble bath and i remember her telling us when all the bubbles were gone and our fingers look like raisins then it was time to get out :) then right before bed we got to seat in a triangle and we rolled the ball for a bit. my aunt has never been a sideline person in my life, i remember visiting her when she was at Hayward State and the only time that i think i lost contact with her for any about of time is when she lived in Oregon. i know that my auntie is one person that i can call day or night with any problem. she encourages me to stand up for me and for what i believe is right no matter who the person is and for this my auntie will always be a rock star bad ass in my book :)
I met Marshae my first week of school at Portland community , i remember her being super quite that first week. and for some reason i was drawn to her i wanted to know her secret. she was the intern for Intervaristy that year and they were doing the hands project where they would ask a question and you would write your answer on your hand then they would take a picture of it and hang it on a poster :) the first time i talked to Shae i wasn't sure why she felt so close being so new i didn't want to get to close i had made my mind up that i was only going to be in Portland one term and then i was going to head back to my school in California. ask any ( mostly shae ) and she will tell you that i hated Portland and i hated that i had to be here but i was falling in love with the people that i met. about 3 years ago i started going though an identity crisis it all started with a conversation that i had with my then 8 year old brother. she was a major part of helping walk though the ups and downs of why i was feeling the way that i was feeling a few months into my crisis i was sitting at home talking to some housemates when she walks in and starts talking with us, then almost out of the blue she says "who wants to go to Africa with me" she tells us that she would be co leading a team of students on a missions trip to Mozambique. i sat there thinking oh they are all going to have a good time a few weeks later i got a text and an email saying fill this out and send it back to me ASAP so i did ( i still wasn't sure if i was going to get picked to go ) but i was after a few misfortune events we were told that our team was not going to Mozambique that we where going to go to Egypt with other team :) few months later we were in one of the hottest dustiest places that i have ever been it was a once in a life time chances and shae had chosen me to go with her :) there are times where i feel like she doesn't like me and when i tell her that she reminds me that i am an extrovert and she an introvert and that we process thoughts and life around us in different ways :) she has tried her best to be a little more out going with me and i a little calmer with her but i have to say that she is one of the most beautiful, (inside and out ) heartfelt genuine people that i have the honor to have in my life :)
Auntie and Shae you are both amazing women and i thank you for every conversation, meal made with/for for all the randomness/ awesomeness i'm glad that you are in my life and that you inspire me to be the best me that i can be :)
Love Annette
Sunday, October 21, 2012
hey now !!!
Hey Zesters,
wow it has been way to long :( i am so sorry i will try to update you all soon but as of right now there is no time :( i hope that you all are well and i am looking forward to spending sometime with my thoughts and updating you all on my crazy life :)
wow it has been way to long :( i am so sorry i will try to update you all soon but as of right now there is no time :( i hope that you all are well and i am looking forward to spending sometime with my thoughts and updating you all on my crazy life :)
Monday, August 6, 2012
Getting to mark something off my list :)
#5 Lose 70 lbs :)
Will Zesters,
a few months ago i posted that i wanted to start working on my weight, that i was no longer happy in the skin i was in and that i have a goal to be 200 lbs or less by April of next year :) i am proud to say that as of a week ago i have lost 78lbs WOOT ! WOOT ! it has been a long and hard road and it is not over yet my short term is to lose 40lbs by the end of the end and that would put me at 200 lbs which is way before my goal :) but i think that i can do that easy :) not sure what else to put in here so here are some pics :) more to come and hopfully i will keep working on that birthday list of mine :)
Will Zesters,
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| same ladies at a friends wedding July 2012 |
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| Me and a some of my ladies at Christmas party 2011 |
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| me and my girl Jess X mas 2011 |
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| Jess and I wedding July 2012 |
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