Hey Zesters,
    So the Question stands, What would you do if you had no fear? would you climb that mountain ? would you try out for that show/ play ? Will for some 60 or so 20 somethings from Portland, OR we are moving across country :). i have never been so excited and worried about anything in my life. This is not my first big move no the first one was unwanted and unplanned. My move to Portland started as a summer trip that lasted 7 years. that thought me some amazing things grew me into who I am today and laying the ground work for what my life is to become.
          In the last 7 years I have seen more of the world then ever before, traveling to 2 other continents 4 other countries, have meet some amazing people, and like i said before have learn so much about myself, and my family. i have been though an extremely  hard ID crisis where i never thought i would fit in any where, a lot had to to with my family history some of  you know it others my never know but it has been some that i have had to deal with my whole life until recently.  I found that i needed to go though those feelings I need to feel those feelings to find out that the place that I  was looking for was not ready for me :) and I  not ready for it.
          i have hope for both Cities that have called me one of their own. I have hated my whole 7 years in Portland,  and I know that i am not going to love every moment of my time in Raleigh.






i thought that i would add in this half thought idea without finishing it because will it is awesome ( in my mind ) the way that it is :)

#PDXtoRDU

Hey Zesters,

    long time I feel like every time that i sit down to write i get so bored or i get overwhelmed with my thoughts that i can't get though it.  so i am going to try my hardest to get though everything that i want to say here :).  

     OK so for those of you that don't know I have been praying to move to Raleigh NC not sure why this city was so heavy on my heart but it was at Urbana 09 that God first put it on my heart to move to NC never really thought that it would happen but long behold almost 4 years later i sit in a Starbucks in Cary NC writing this to you :) ( my God is SO GOOD! ) 

     i am not sure how long God has me here. but i do know that it will be for his good. as of right now i am part of a church plant that moved out from Portland, there are about 70 couples, singles and young families. as a core person in the church i am blessed to be part of the College Ministry team ( which is what i think i want to do for the next few yours  :  ) 

     God has made it very clear that this is something that i can not do on my own that it is something that i am going to have to lay down at his feet. and have him knock them out. there are so many things that i want to try to take care of by myself. at the moment it is my job situation while i have a job :) i have no hours for the next few weeks at the moment :( which is going to kill my budget so much :( not sure how i am going to pay for a car, insurance, rent, house bills, phone, and gas if my budget is shot. 

    as for now i am holding on to " God is good so i don't have to be in control" he has blessed me this much so far from the funds for the move to a place to stay while we wait on our apartment to a connection while trying to buy a car. i know that his hand is in this. this is not my move this is his, so why do i keep trying to take it over ? 

well just a few thought for you all today. my hope is that i will get back to writing at least  twice a month if not more :) but we will see i know that there is going to be plenty to share so stay tuned :) 

The Heart Of the Matter

Hey Zesters,
    So I feel like for the past few months I have gotton better at being still and listing to God's voice a lot with my move but just with other stuff as well.  So a few months ago I was talking to a friend of my a few weeks before her wedding, and we were talking about Ray who had starting someone, who I really liked :) which made it really hard to see them together but i made it though :) i was telling her how i felt like God was prepping my heart for the fact that Ray and (lets call her Evangeline) where on the road to getting Engaged. i was telling my friend that while i would be happy for them it would be hard and not sure why.  so fast forward to yesterday. i was on facebook and saw this post about how we see things one way, like waking up late or the small frustrating things of life. all we do is ask God why does he let those things happen to us. however its really God protecting us from other things. Car not starting for 20 mins = saving us from and accident.  brings us to today it was my favorite little persons birthday party :) and i had told her mom that i would come early to help put it together i told her that i would be at her house at 9 am well i woke up at 8 15 am so i asked if i could get a ride there so i was packing my bag making sure that i didn't forget anything ok got it all out the door we go we get half way to my friends house when i realize that i forgot my phone... ok no big deal it means that i will be 100%  present with the birthday girl and her brother and sister. and the party was great :) i had a blast :) so i get home and check my phone nothing super important just some updates for tomorrow so i hop on facebook and some fun updates :) then i see it the post that i knew was coming just didn't know when and was kind of hoping that it would be after my move  i see that Ray is Engaged to Evangeline and the first thing that comes to mind i knew it was going to happen :) so i call up my bestie and all i said was "so i was on Facebook " and she says " oh you saw it " the funny thing is all i could was be happy its a bittersweet happy but happy none the least i thought maybe that is why i forgot my phone this morning think about it if i had my phone i would have been on facebook texting people alll of it i would have seen the post sooner and would have forgotton the reason why today was so awesome so praise be to God :)

Annette

Babies, Bended Knees, and Exchange of rings ...

Hey Zesters,
    wow it has been way to long i am so sorry, lucky for me there is no one that reads this unless i post it on Facebook ; ).   so what's new you may ask... so many things, first off I AM MOVING TO NC !!!!! ahhh i am so excited i think that the last time that i posted i was going to go sometime next year but God has been so good and faithful in all that he has promised and i will be leaving Sept 5 of this year :) this is really an exciting time so many things are happening that I am not sure where to start and where to leave off but I will leave it here for now but I promise to keep to updated so stay tuned :)