Hey Zesters,
    So the Question stands, What would you do if you had no fear? would you climb that mountain ? would you try out for that show/ play ? Will for some 60 or so 20 somethings from Portland, OR we are moving across country :). i have never been so excited and worried about anything in my life. This is not my first big move no the first one was unwanted and unplanned. My move to Portland started as a summer trip that lasted 7 years. that thought me some amazing things grew me into who I am today and laying the ground work for what my life is to become.
          In the last 7 years I have seen more of the world then ever before, traveling to 2 other continents 4 other countries, have meet some amazing people, and like i said before have learn so much about myself, and my family. i have been though an extremely  hard ID crisis where i never thought i would fit in any where, a lot had to to with my family history some of  you know it others my never know but it has been some that i have had to deal with my whole life until recently.  I found that i needed to go though those feelings I need to feel those feelings to find out that the place that I  was looking for was not ready for me :) and I  not ready for it.
          i have hope for both Cities that have called me one of their own. I have hated my whole 7 years in Portland,  and I know that i am not going to love every moment of my time in Raleigh.






i thought that i would add in this half thought idea without finishing it because will it is awesome ( in my mind ) the way that it is :)

#PDXtoRDU

Hey Zesters,

    long time I feel like every time that i sit down to write i get so bored or i get overwhelmed with my thoughts that i can't get though it.  so i am going to try my hardest to get though everything that i want to say here :).  

     OK so for those of you that don't know I have been praying to move to Raleigh NC not sure why this city was so heavy on my heart but it was at Urbana 09 that God first put it on my heart to move to NC never really thought that it would happen but long behold almost 4 years later i sit in a Starbucks in Cary NC writing this to you :) ( my God is SO GOOD! ) 

     i am not sure how long God has me here. but i do know that it will be for his good. as of right now i am part of a church plant that moved out from Portland, there are about 70 couples, singles and young families. as a core person in the church i am blessed to be part of the College Ministry team ( which is what i think i want to do for the next few yours  :  ) 

     God has made it very clear that this is something that i can not do on my own that it is something that i am going to have to lay down at his feet. and have him knock them out. there are so many things that i want to try to take care of by myself. at the moment it is my job situation while i have a job :) i have no hours for the next few weeks at the moment :( which is going to kill my budget so much :( not sure how i am going to pay for a car, insurance, rent, house bills, phone, and gas if my budget is shot. 

    as for now i am holding on to " God is good so i don't have to be in control" he has blessed me this much so far from the funds for the move to a place to stay while we wait on our apartment to a connection while trying to buy a car. i know that his hand is in this. this is not my move this is his, so why do i keep trying to take it over ? 

well just a few thought for you all today. my hope is that i will get back to writing at least  twice a month if not more :) but we will see i know that there is going to be plenty to share so stay tuned :)