taking a min to thank God

so this evening my best friend came over to hang out we were cooking and listening to music and the song theres hope by India Arie came on and i started thinking there is so much to be thankful for in this time where i can find everything wrong with life.  i know that i am a worrier that is how i have always been thinking that  have other choice,  so i know in my head that i don't have to worry about finding work or how bills are going to be paid for i just know that they are but for some reason it is just not connecting in my heart i want to be able to trust that God will provide and when i am not in the middle of the storm i know that to be true but while in the storm me in all my humanness is looking for a way to take care of this on my own :( i just know that i am not strong enough to do it on my own and i am not one that likes to ask for help thinking that everything can be done by me or if i don't do it that it is not going to be done right or the way that i want it done.


but i can say that i am thankful for so many unexpected things

• Gracie taking me shopping 
• kathy give my work and the paying more then i was expecting 
• an IV student that i don't really know giving me money 
• having all the money i need for rent cell phone and PGE 
• being able to go away for the weekend a celebrate God goodness

things that i need prayer for

1. that God would protect my heart when it comes to this guy 
2. that God would provide work and a study job 
3. that funds would come though for me to go back to school 
4. that i would be able to confess with my mouth AND believe in my heart that God is bigger then what the world can throw at me 
5. that i would be able to go stright to God with all my problems and not to my friends 
6. that God would start to heal my family so that i would feel comfortable going to them with things 

Jesus i seal these things in your name AMEN