this is a post that i though i put up looks like i never did so here you go :)
Well, Welcome to 2012,
life so far has not been the best, i didn't get into school, and now i have no job :(. yes January bills are covered but i have no food or any money to get any food but i have been blessed by my best friend who brought me a few things that she had :) which i am more then grateful for. in the middle of all of this i called my dad telling him that i wanted to go home, which i want just because i have this idea of my dad taking care of me and i would be able to go to school and work part time.
when i first moved to Portland it was never about staying here it was more of a summer thing something to do so that when i went back to school and people asked me what i did for the summer i could tell them that i went to portland and worked and met some cool people.
it became more of well i think that God has me here for a reason so i am going to stay and get my grades up and see what happens for next semester. will next semester turned into ok lets finish out the school year to ok i am not sure that i want to go back to Vanguard, lets see what else is out there. to ok things are not the best but they are better then what they were so lets stay here for ungrad then we will see what God wants us to do.
so whenever i have a low moment all i want to do is pack up and move back to cali although i know that is not the best thing for me to do now or ever again. i love my dad but i also know that i have changed so much in the last 6 years that i am not sure that i could put up with his BS any more i can see what is going on and i could choose to go with it or not but i am not that kind of person i know that i will let him treat me however he wanted and even though it would piss me off i would put up with it :(
so while are not great i know that they will get better and anything in portland is better then what i could have in california
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